It's been a long time comin...

So I finally got baptized today. 

Another personality test.

I needed something to do during my autocad class so I took a personality test. Here are the results:

According to this I'm a reserved visionary.

My personalDNA Report

So Apparently,

before I get into my post I just want to say that I am having a lovely birthday and am hoping and praying that this year and being 20 is awesome and I get to experience new things and have deep genuine relationships.

Anyway, I took a personality test and I am an INFJ... basically here's the description...

As an INFJ, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you take things in primarily via intuition. Your secondary mode is external, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit with your personal value system.

INFJs are gentle, caring, complex and highly intuitive individuals. Artistic and creative, they live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities. Only one percent of the population has an INFJ Personality Type, making it the most rare of all the types.

INFJs place great importance on havings things orderly and systematic in their outer world. They put a lot of energy into identifying the best system for getting things done, and constantly define and re-define the priorities in their lives. On the other hand, INFJs operate within themselves on an intuitive basis which is entirely spontaneous. They know things intuitively, without being able to pinpoint why, and without detailed knowledge of the subject at hand. They are usually right, and they usually know it. Consequently, INFJs put a tremendous amount of faith into their instincts and intuitions. This is something of a conflict between the inner and outer worlds, and may result in the INFJ not being as organized as other Judging types tend to be. Or we may see some signs of disarray in an otherwise orderly tendency, such as a consistently messy desk.

INFJs have uncanny insight into people and situations. They get "feelings" about things and intuitively understand them. As an extreme example, some INFJs report experiences of a psychic nature, such as getting strong feelings about there being a problem with a loved one, and discovering later that they were in a car accident. This is the sort of thing that other types may scorn and scoff at, and the INFJ themself does not really understand their intuition at a level which can be verbalized. Consequently, most INFJs are protective of their inner selves, sharing only what they choose to share when they choose to share it. They are deep, complex individuals, who are quite private and typically difficult to understand. INFJs hold back part of themselves, and can be secretive.

But the INFJ is as genuinely warm as they are complex. INFJs hold a special place in the heart of people who they are close to, who are able to see their special gifts and depth of caring. INFJs are concerned for people's feelings, and try to be gentle to avoid hurting anyone. They are very sensitive to conflict, and cannot tolerate it very well. Situations which are charged with conflict may drive the normally peaceful INFJ into a state of agitation or charged anger. They may end to internalize conflict into their bodies, and experience health problems when under a lot of stress.

Because the INFJ has such strong intuitive capabilities, they trust their own instincts above all else. This may result in an INFJ stubborness and tendency to ignore other people's opinions. They believe that they're right. On the other hand, INFJ is a perfectionist who doubts that they are living up to their full potential. INFJs are rarely at complete peace with themselves - there's always something else they should be doing to improve themselves and the world around them. They believe in constant growth, and don't often take time to revel in their accomplishments. They have strong value systems, and need to live their lives in accordance with what they feel is right. In deference to the Feeling aspect of their personalities, INFJs are in some ways gentle and easy going. Conversely, they have very high expectations of themselves, and frequently of their families. They don't believe in compromising their ideals.

INFJ is a natural nurturer; patient, devoted and protective. They make loving parents and usually have strong bonds with their offspring. They have high expectations of their children, and push them to be the best that they can be. This can sometimes manifest itself in the INFJ being hard-nosed and stubborn. But generally, children of an INFJ get devoted and sincere parental guidance, combined with deep caring.

In the workplace, the INFJ usually shows up in areas where they can be creative and somewhat independent. They have a natural affinity for art, and many excel in the sciences, where they make use of their intuition. INFJs can also be found in service-oriented professions. They are not good at dealing with minutia or very detailed tasks. The INFJ will either avoid such things, or else go to the other extreme and become enveloped in the details to the extent that they can no longer see the big picture. An INFJ who has gone the route of becoming meticulous about details may be highly critical of other individuals who are not.

The INFJ individual is gifted in ways that other types are not. Life is not necessarily easy for the INFJ, but they are capable of great depth of feeling and personal achievement.

I took this test here: http://www.personalitytype.com/prequiz.aspx What's your personality type?

It's my birthday!

I'm 20 years old!!!!!!!!!!!!

Am I depressed, Angry, sad, or all three?

So I've been laying in bed since I woke up at 9 am this morning. It is now 7:25 pm. Some days I just don't want to get out of bed. I mean I have kind of tentative plans that I can conveniently break. The "Maybe" option is my favorite on facebook. Me checking maybe on an event says "I support you but I'll probably not show up." I'm consistent with my inconsistencies. Days like this I claim that I'm recuperating from being in studio so much and that I miss being in my own bed. Maybe I'm right. Or maybe its a cop out. My best friend goes to a different school and lives in a different state. When she visited in the summer we were constantly doing something. Maybe I just like being alone and being me unapologetically. I like being around people to an extent. But I also like to be along. I'm an introverted extrovert. I'm a contemplative people person. I just don't really feel the need to be outgoing all of the time. But its to the point that if I'm not in studio or running around doing something for studio, I don't want to go out. Unless it's to eat. :-). 

I've been getting angry during this political time. Don't get me wrong, I'm very excited for the elections. I love my candidate and I'm excited that this is going to be my first election! I've been doing my research but I keep running across pieces of media I would appropriately like to call GARBAGE. I'm not even going to plug it on my blog. I'm just very disappointed and upset that people are thinking that just because they're Christian they have to be right wing and conservative. They're bringing up straight up GARBAGE on the news and just making other people who are christians look stupid. I guess my political views gear to more social programs and stuff than to getting tax breaks. I feel like I'm conservative with my self, meaning if there are laws that state a certain thing that I think is morally wrong, man it's my blog... I'm just going to go right out and say it. Abortion. I think it's wrong but just because the country may permit it, that does not mean I'm going to go out and get one. Not everyone thinks like me. Some people were taught that sex was for marriage and some people were not. And then there are issues with rape and things of that nature. As a person who would never get an abortion unless there was like physical danger toward myself (then I'd have to pray about it, I haven't thought that through) I still know that just because you ban something doesn't mean people are going to listen. It's against the law to drink and drive and people still do it. Now unless people ban it and then start adopting some babies like crazy because people are not going to stop having sex just because you teach them about abstinence. Ugh. I'm rambling. Basically, I follow christ and I will be conservative with my self and personal choices but I have no right to dictate how someone deals with themselves. This said, one of my favorite passages is Isaiah 58 which talks about feeding the hungry and clothing the naked and such. I will follow this and I just feel like my candidate is striving more for helping people with their everyday lives . I'm not choosing my candidate because he's the poster boy for my "squeeky" clean moral standards and he is what a real christian looks like and blah blah blah. I really just hate the labeling and elitist attitude that people are embracing.  

I've been thinking about the 3 deaths in the family that have happened in the past 2 years. Well the last two have happened in the last 8 months. It's been a trying time. Fortunately I've been able to praise God through a lot of it. Even when  you don't understand or you just 

feel like you can't feel anymore. Trust in God and lean on him.

 

Please school me if I am wrong about something. The last thing I want to be is ignorant. And if you have any verses to get me out of this funk please offer them up. And pray for me. I know Jesus got angry... but he was perfect. lol.