A whole bunch of mumbo jumbo.

I was going to write about my new found obsession with Nip/Tuck and Entourage...


Then I was going to talk about how frustrated I get when I can't get a seat in studio after I walked down my four flights of stairs, across the street, and up the never ending two flights of the studio, with all of my supplies to find the studio packed. I'm actually hoping people drop the major. The only times I feel like the school is too crowded is in the studio... not even game days do I feel this overwhelmed.


While living in the youth filled place called College, I barely get to see children. When I do my heart melts. I miss kids. I've been trying to grow closer to certain friends lately. Sometimes building relationships with people is what I need to truly feel. Just feel. Sometimes you're the only Jesus people see. Thinking about that makes me smile.


So because I'm in one of the most stressful majors at UF I have started doing something to relieve that stress. I know you'll be shocked to hear that I'm kinda sorta domestic. I like baking. One thing in particular... cup cakes. It's like working on a model...takes hours and sweat, tears, and maybe physical pain. I have the sore feet and hands and back to prove it! Cupcakes take very little effort, lots of care, and it just makes me feel good. I eat a couple while i'm icing them but I usually share them with girls on my floor or my design 1 class. They love it and I love doing it. And sometimes people are one thing away from feeling or doing something terrible. Maybe a cupcake and a smile will be that little thing that will make them feel a little bit better that day. :-)


So with cupcakes as a stress reliever comes the inevitable... it's really not just the cupcakes. Eating on the go, after a stressful time in studio at 2 am right before bed, whatever is in the fridge, and having a ben and jerry's semester long project isn't helping much either. So I ordered a armband for my ipod and jogging headphones. Hopefully I can jog and get back in shape... starting next week. I just really pray for order, peace, serenity, time, and God's blessings. I want to yearn for GOD and not be too tired to talk to him. He is our longest and most important relationship. He loved us and knew us before we were even conceived.

John 15:1-13 says:

Jesus Christ, is God's unique and eternal Son.¹ He is the Alpha and Omega,² the Great I AM,³ the "Mighty God"⁴ by whom all things were created⁵ and in whom all things consist.⁶ Jesus, who is the head of all things,⁷ humbled Himself in such a way that the human mind couldn't even bare the thought of it. He came into this sin-cursed world and actively partook in our sufferings. Even as we are flesh and blood, He shared in the same.⁸ He became a man and dwelt among us.⁹ He shared in the sufferings we brought upon ourselves through our rejection of His holy precepts.¹⁰ And as if that were not enough to convince us of His love and concern for us, Jesus, the immortal God and the Giver of Life, gave up His own life upon the cross in the greatest act of love the world has ever known! In doing so He took our sins away, effectively nailing them to the cross with Himself. Thus, He who knew no sin became sin for us¹¹ and He who gave life to all, tasted death for those condemned to it.¹² "Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends"


I feel like crying when I read that. I think one of the things I am so grateful for is that I know God right now and at an early age... and now I'm just blabbing... I have to start my project for architecture and get something done tonight.


I love music artists who are searching for God and ones that have already found him. It makes my heart smile. Mat Kearney's "memorial stones" is a song about his whole journey with God. I think at one point he was selling drugs and stuff. When I saw him in concert (which happened to be at a bar) he was amazing. And although a lot of people were drunk/ smoking and stuff he seemed cool enough not to be all nose up in the air Christian about it. Even though I highly dislike the smell of smoke and the potential cancerous risks second hand smoke can have and the actions of people who are drunk, I think I could have been less snobby and been more Christlike. I think Jesus was never snobby. Correct me if I'm wrong. So here's a video of Mat Kearney's "Memorial Stones"



A young one, in just tears
Lying in my own fears
Lying, choking in a puddle
Drowning down in my own tears
Left you for the simple spread
Taking the steps it ends in
Lie down in a self-dug grave,
Cloud formed over my head as I laid myself down to rest
The enemy camped upon my chest
With blinded eyes and lies
Till cries he did profess
With rain and thundering storms
And clouds that fogged my intellect
With guilt and shame he built his house
And doubts in the form of self respect
With lightning that was frightening
Taking my eyes up off the Lord
Trying to discredit and edit
The words of truth he found in sword
He harmed me and disarmed me
And he charmed me with his army
But I stand before you right now
Cause the Lord came upon me
With the morning sun that pierced the cloud
And made the moisture dissipate
With a northern wind, the fog will clear
And the rays touched my face
Holy Spirit, warmed me, swarmed me
Touching me with a sweet taste
He picked me up, and kicked my butt
And placed me back in the right race
Lord, you brought me out of shackles
Divided seas all along
It’s in you that I still stand
It’s in you that I have song

Memorial stones in the middle of the Jordan
Lord you brought me along
I had a change through the desert
In you Lord that I’m strong
Raining bread from the heavens
Giving me a new song
Memorial stones in the middle of the Jordan
I’m pressing on

From the day to day, the miry clay
Through the wilderness astray
You brought me to the river Jordan
Bow my head down low and pray
And thank a faithful God
Who’s brought his water to my lip
Grabbed my hand and led me to the promised land where the honey drips
And the vines filled with fruit of all kinds
For the spirit, soul, and mind
Around the sound of chimes
The water stopped and came in line
And clattered feet sound
Israel crossed the dry ground
Memorial stones were laid down
In awe of your love that’s so profound
You brought the old into a new face
With a new place and a new grace
Your love, provision shown as you gave your child a new taste
The manna stocks of milk and honey
of (?) found at my feet
Then I dropped to my knees
For the God, he’s so complete
About face, he sees me
From the grips, the enemy
In the midst, my blunder through the thunder
You’re under me in victory
By no means is this journey finished, over, or complete
There are many Jericho’s walls
That’ll fall at Allah’s feet

Memorial stones in the middle of the Jordan
Lord you brought me along
I had a change through the desert
In you Lord that I’m strong
Raining bread from the heavens
Giving me a new song
Memorial stones in the middle of the Jordan
I’m pressing on


This was way too long of a post. I just feel like letting it all out sometimes. Whew...