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I guess the number 1 rule of being wise is not to tell people you're wise. I made that mistake. Then I was just embarrassed. UGH.

Tomorrow I go to Boston... for six days... will be fun!


whatev... now i'm tired and my eye hurts.

Chill weekend

So it's Sunday! Praise the Lord. Church was good today... had some good conversations. I find myself drawn to having conversations with people older than me rather than my age or younger. Whatev...

So... today I saw Premonition... twas good but too realistic in a non realistic way. I wanted to cry. I guess when I go see a movie I want to be watching a fantasy play out. Not real life stuff.

Yesterday I did a whole lotta nothing and worked out. Oh and today I watched the Florida-Oregon game... but left before it ended. Florida won! 85-77. Amazing.

That's it for today. Weekend was very chill.

sweaty... beach...museum...

AAAAAHHHHHHHHH the smell of sweat! So I just finished working out and I feel Great! Something about the burning feeling I get afterward... I like! I feel like I'm seeing results already. Abs of steel here I come!

So tomorrow seeing that we get out of school at 10:45 AM and I don't have to do anything for AP Stats because we will be using that whole time period to sign up for grad bash buses... I am going to have a great day and afterward head to the beach with Maria and Laura. Yup Yup... the beach twice in 5 days! Last time it was too cold to go in the water so we just laid out. I'm cool with just laying out tomorrow. I feel so energized.

Speaking of AP Stats... yesterday the teacher was all like "Who wants to see their grade..." but I didn't want to be sad for the rest of the day so I declined knowing that I had a 2.41 C.... then when I got to 5th period and checked my grades on the computer I was shocked!!!!!!!! I had a 2.8 B !!!!!!!!!!! B in AP STATS! That's a miracle for me!

Thank you GOD!

So yea... so tomorrow isn't a real day of school which I'm thankful for... I do have an economics test though. Eh... I should study for it since that class is my worst class. Being my only gifted level class... not counting Philosophy... It is soooo irritating...

So on Thursday I'm going to the Bass Art Museum and get to be out of school uniform for the day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yay. And the art will be good too.

Lyric of the day: I'm just a raindrop in your ocean/ You have unleashed your love on me and it fills me up.

(Warren Barfield- Unleashed)

No school, Shopping, Beach, Scholarships, blah blah

Man... I blog in my head more than on this site. Sometimes I think and I'm like "man I should blog that..." and I just get sooooooooooooo tired. The whole Youtube VLOG thing didn't work out. I'm not looking camera ready all the time so I just don't. Plus I have to edit. The only thing I edit here is my spelling and my potty sailor mouth (JUST KIDDING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Wednesday night I got to church at like 7:15 and was bummed. I don't enjoy being late. It can throw me off so badly. But anywhoo I was doing a devo the other night and I came across the reassuring stuff that God is not like "Danielle you suck!!!!!!!" lol he's really not.

In God's Eyes I Am…

I am God's child.
Galatians 3:26

I am Jesus' friend.
John 15:15

I am a whole new person with a whole new life.
2 Corinthians 5:17

I am a place where God's Spirit lives.
1 Corinthians 6:19

I am God's Incredible work of art.
Ephesians 2:10

I am totally and completely forgiven.
1 John 1:9

I am created In God's likeness.
Ephesians 4:24

I am spiritually alive.
Ephesians 2:5

I am a citizen of Heaven.
Philippians 3:20

I am God's messenger to the world.
Acts 1:8

I am God's disciple-maker.
Matthew 28:19

I am the salt of the earth.
Matthew 5:13

I am the light of the world.
Matthew 5:14

I am greatly loved.
Romans 5:8

So that's good. Then today I just realized I have been paying for rhapsody when I thought it wasn't working cause it wasn't and now it is and its perfect timing and their just playing the best songs and I'm feeling so AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH good.
Yea so on my day out of school yesterday... I went to sunset place...


And walked around for a bit... because it was not sunny. Then I saw someone from middle school and I was all like "HEY! ___________" and they were like "hey" and like ran away. I guess it was awkward for them. Whatever. lol.

So then it got sunny and we were like... "LETS GO TO THE BEACH!" So we did. And we ended up at Nikki Beach and had to pee. So we went into Nikki Beach the club and peed and it was nice inside. But whatever. Then we laid out on the sand and were like "Come on SUN COME OUT." and stuff. It was good.

Then we went walking around and I wanted to see Irene Marie Modeling Agency... because me and Maria watch the show "8th and Ocean" and wish it would come back. So after some shopping we saw it.

Right above Johnny Rockets... lol.

Then we got to see Miami Ink... which I watch only sometimes because everyone has the same story and wants to tattoo someone that died on them... There was a huge line outside and I didn't know why because we drove by. lol.

Man I hate getting hit on by dirty old men.

Anyways, I'm a finalist for an essay and here are my somewhat entertaining funny essay question responses. And yes I gave myself the title of "Director of Organizational Worship" because what else are you going to call someone that makes copies of music, puts them in a folder, types them in Easy Worship, makes sure there are pretty backgrounds for songs and no spelling errors, gets coffee and food for the drummer?

Common Scholarship Questions

Academics- ap stats, human geo, English lit, English lang, American hist, art history

Extracuriculars/community activities- jv girls volleyball manager (2004-2005), varsity girls volleyball manager (2004-2005), Italian Club (2004-2007), Science honor society (2005-2007) , BRCC- Youth leader (2006-2007), Camp Counselor(2005-2007), Director of organizational worship(2006-2007), Habitat for humanity(2007), NAAR WALK (2007)

How do you see your course of study affecting your goals for the future?

For most of my academic life, I have been apart of the Gifted program and most recently the Advanced Placement program. These programs strive to provide learning environments that challenged and prepare students for the amount of effort that higher institutes of learning can require students to exert. After so many years of taking Gifted level classes I had exhausted the possibilities of being challenged. In my junior year of high school I began taking two AP classes and found what I needed. I found that I succeeded academically as well as felt better when I was learning at a higher level. Senior year, while most of my peers were “taking it easy” I doubled my amount of AP classes and am continuing to satisfy my inner yearning for knowledge. Since I am no stranger to learning and do well in advanced environments, I see my goals as getting bachelor and master degrees in both interior design and architecture and one day opening up my own firm as a possibility. I am up for the challenge.

If you listed a leadership role in one or more of the activities or organizations cited above, please choose one, detail your responsibilities, and explain the significance of your contribution to the organization. Out of all of my leadership roles my most rewarding would be as Director of Organizational Worship at my church, Bird Road Community Church. As Director I work with the Worship leader and pick songs for the Wednesday night service as well as the Sunday morning service. I also make copies of music for the musicians, organize the music folder, make sure all of the lyrics are in the computer and are set up to be projected for the congregation to read from. For a contemporary service this is vital. I also aid the worship musicians in whatever they need from refreshments to an ear to make sure their microphone is not too loud. I have a heart for administrative work in this area and making sure something so vital as worship is organized is very important to the church and to most importantly praising God.

From the courses, activities, internships, and work experience, which one did you find most rewarding or personally satisfying? Explain why. The most personally satisfying thing that I do would be being Director of Organization Worship at my church. Worship,

Our time of praise through music and prayer is half an hour long but it is something that is very vital to the rest of the church service. It is a time to just relax and focus on God and to forget your problems. It prepares your heart for the message the pastor will preach later on. Being able to run the show behind the scenes while everyone is focused on the worship leader is very rewarding to me. I am more of an intimate person than one that adores the spotlight so being in the sound room in the back of the church and still be able to have a big important job is personally satisfying. Also seeing people cry because a song I chose was exactly what they needed to lift their spirits or speak to their hearts is amazing. I love to affect people in a positive way and at the same time serve God. This responsibility has been the perfect fit.

How has a family member or family experience been influential in your life?

The unexpected death of my aunt, Berlinda has been influential in my life. My aunt was a very giving lady who danced to her own beat and was the slowest driver I knew. She was full of life but towards the end, almost as If foreshadowing the end, all she did was work and sleep. Everyone was telling her to slow down on the working, but as a nurse’s assistant, she insisted she had to work all the hours she could. She worked the night shift and slept during the day. She was also rapidly gaining weight due to a thyroid problem. My family believes that she had some kind of illness but was too scared to tell us. We still have no idea what was her real cause of death. One night she told me she’d see me later and that was the last time I saw her. She collapsed at work and gained consciousness once since then but didn’t make it. Her death truly taught me that we’re all on borrowed time and that you can’t let life pass you by. I have decided to live everyday the best way I can and to just have fun because you will never know when your time will be up.

Evaluate a significant experience, achievement, risk you have taken, or ethical dilemma you have faced and its impact on you. An ethical dilemma I have faced is the overwhelming amount of teenage drinkers there are. Beyond a sip of champagne at a wedding, I have not indulged much in alcohol—but every Monday or so there is some story about how some group of people were “wasted” at a party and how “crazy” it was. Well I think underage drinking and drinking to get drunk is not a good choice. If I didn’t state my opinion I guess this dilemma would not have much of an impact on me—but I do. I usually say how I personally don’t drink and that I think I’m fun without the influence of alcohol. Stating things like this have an impact on me. It usually narrows down my friends list by a couple of double digits, I don’t get invited to parties much, and am stuck doing age appropriate stuff such as going to see a movie instead of going to a night club like most of my peers. I believe this impact is a good one because you only get to live once and I believe in living a healthy lifestyle and having people around me that believe the same thing.

PS: why do I always miss the very crazy last minute of Grey's Anatomy? I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. THEY DO A GOOD JOB OF MAKING IT SEEM LIKE THE SHOWS OVER OR I GO INTO A COMA OR I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT I DO... I DIDN'T FIND OUT ABOUT THE ENGAGEMENT TILL SOMEONE BROUGHT IT UP AND I WAS LIKE "WHHHATTTTTTTTT!????????????" AND NOW SOMETHING WITH IZZIE AND GEORGE... I SERIOUSLY HAVE TO GET HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gifts, vow of silence, and math...

So today I wrapped Virginia's gift... two days late but I mean she'll get it. We didn't have school on her birthday and I don't have a car. W/e. Today was a good day. I got over my bad grade on the math quiz and pending bad grade on the chapter test. We avoided work in Economics but got a lesson on good credit.

I exercised today and it felt good. Carmen Electra workout dvds are really good. So I pretty much realized that I can't diet because I just love the taste of good food too much. I mean I won't eat too late and I'm not being gluttonous... but when I want a cookie... I WANT A COOKIE. I'll just work out later. Which I do so I'm glad I'm sticking to it.

I was thinking of taking a vow of silence tomorrow. For what reason? Umm self reflection... I guess sometimes I can be self involved and self centered and I want to just take in my surroundings and observe people. I don't know if it'll work out because I can just see people talking to me tomorrow. Maybe I'll just cut it down to a need to speak basis and take that seriously.

Man along with my 250gb external hardrive, I bought a dvd collection of Bogie and Bacall classics. I have yet to watch it. Must make time tomorrow!

That's it for now.

Sketch, Study, Exodus who?

I really need to sketch more. And while I'm at that... today I need to study for math! I'm .03 away from a B in AP stats. Man by the grace of God I've come a long way in that class! Thanks Jesus! I also need to read my bible. I'm still in Exodus 2 or something and I need to be like in Exodus 34289234789327. :-)

More later... time for church.

Cleaning... Grey's Anatomy...Free tuition,,,Crush Free

So today I planned on cleaning my room and exercising. 1 out of 2 aint bad. I ended up cleaning my room while watching the complete 1st season of Grey's anatomy. Sweet. I watched the whole season and still wasn't finished cleaning. I even dusted my fan. I mean this was definitely SPRING cleaning. I cleaned my closet. I usually just stuff everything in there. So yesterday I found out that I'm getting my summer tuition paid for by UF because I'm in the AIM program. Or will be in. That's really cool. Ah-mazing! So. I'm pretty much over my crush that I had for like a year. He's still an awesome dude but the whole...nervous "I want to throw up everytime I see your face" in a good way nerves are gone. Isn't that crazy that even though they're gone I still see him as a good guy?? I usually see it work out for the worse after that period. I pretty much figured we won't be together anytime soon because of college choices and for the fact that I don't want to date someone just for the heck of it. We can be friends and hang out sure. But anything more? Why? Yea. I guess I'm guarding my heart, and my mind, and my feelings.

So yesterday I'm in first block and this kid is talking about a distinguished night club he wants to open up in the future so the conversation switches to what clubs people have been in in the grove area. Everyone's talking about their clubbing experience and I'm just sitting and taking it all in. He turns to me and he's like "have you ever been?" and I'm like "No. I don't club... yet." And he asked me "What do you do?" And I mean I just shrugged. I mean I hang out with college aged or mature kids and we don't club. We do things like go out to eat, go to the movies, go to the beach and have a picnic. And when they want to go clubbing I'm usually finding something else to do. Just not my scene right now.

Maybe I'm reading too much into this "wisdom" gift. But I guess I just know when I'm not ready for stuff. I'm aware of my awkwardness and how I come off to people. I usually look at this girls talking about clubbing and make comments in my mind that a mother would. I'm an old lady that way... especially since my bed time is like 7 and I drink tea. :-)