I think my theme song for the whole fall semester would be any Mat Kearney song... ahhhh I just love pensive, sad sounding-but not necessarily sad songs. And his show was spectacular. Just amazing. I know... why am I still thinking about it huh? That good!
I'm glad I'm single. I like me a lot. I've seen some friends that can't bare to be alone and its sad to me. It's like "You really don't think your good enough on your own?" I hope I never feel like I need someone else to validate my worth. And I really pray that I never put a mere mortal man that makes mistakes up on such a pedestal that I push my heavenly father aside for him. Granted these girls don't have much of a relationship with Christ but it's like nowadays people just can't believe that God would want to have anything to do with them. It's sad that there is such a lack of self esteem.
So I said I'm glad I'm single right? Well it's pretty much because I like how I learn new stuff about myself all the time. Plus with the little time I have I can spend it doing what I want to do. Christmas is coming up. I went to church 3 times in the past 7 days. It's a lot when back up at school I went to church like 3 times the whole semester. It was fun though. We had a Christmas party last night which was great and I ended up bringing some sparkling grape juice. It was amazing. I really don't enjoy alcohol, at least the ones I've tried. So the grape juice was great. I mean... not that I'm of age or anything to drink or like I've had that many chances...mostly family parties and such.
I'm soooo old now that my list is pretty much obsolete. I bought my mom a bunch of little things. A dvd for two of my baby cousins. That's about it. I'm asking for the chronological bible, an extra battery for my laptop, and a few other little things. I think the whole college thing and pretty much buying stuff whenever you have the means and not having to wait kind of makes Christmas less of a selfish holiday like it has been in the past for me.
So Design 1 of Architorture is finally over. I survived it! So I've decided that I'm going to get my bachelor's in Interior Design and then get my Masters in Architecture... because even if I were to get a bachelors in design (what most potential architects do) and be an architect I'd still want to focus on interiors. It is just what interests me more. So why not spend most of my undergrad studying interiors and then move on the my masters with two years of architecture and be able to do both? I hope it works out that way. I'm rambling right now. I'm thinking about baking cookies to go along with the cd of pictures that I'll be dropping off at my GTAs' (graduate teaching assistants) mailboxes. I baked around 45 cookies this week for random people working on their final in studio so I'll be making more soon. I'm a little tired so this blog will have to be continued...
So since I normally complain about the amount of time I spend in studio and how difficult and crazy my major is... I decided to make a collage of some of my photos from my latest model. Photography isn't really my strong point so far and neither is craft. lol. I usually have crooked pieces in my models. But that's what Design 1 is for I guess. I found out that one of my TA's had bad craft in D1 and in D2 so that made me feel better. I mean coming from a background with no art skills whatsoever I think I'm doing pretty well. I think I'll finish the class with a B.
I have no final exams and I think, if I calculated it right I can pretty much come back home the week after thanksgiving. No class till Jan 7 for spring semester. So that's over a month of watching lifetime movies, hanging out with the best friend, and sleeping a lot, not to mention not thinking about architecture!
Okay so my major is interior design... but sometime this week I was thinking of switching to architecture... but now I'm not sure. I need to speak to some professionals pronto.
How, tell me how did I go on with life for 3 months without checking on Daves Barnes site/myspace...and totally missing him and Matt Wertz on tour?
I heart Dave Barnes music mucho. Man. I don't know how I would have made it, who I would have gone with or anything. But I just... man i need more friends with cars who are willing to go to concerts all over the place.
The Orlando concert is tomorrow. Boo! So Sad. Love that guy's music.
I was going to write about my new found obsession with Nip/Tuck and Entourage...
Then I was going to talk about how frustrated I get when I can't get a seat in studio after I walked down my four flights of stairs, across the street, and up the never ending two flights of the studio, with all of my supplies to find the studio packed. I'm actually hoping people drop the major. The only times I feel like the school is too crowded is in the studio... not even game days do I feel this overwhelmed.
While living in the youth filled place called College, I barely get to see children. When I do my heart melts. I miss kids. I've been trying to grow closer to certain friends lately. Sometimes building relationships with people is what I need to truly feel. Just feel. Sometimes you're the only Jesus people see. Thinking about that makes me smile.
So because I'm in one of the most stressful majors at UF I have started doing something to relieve that stress. I know you'll be shocked to hear that I'm kinda sorta domestic. I like baking. One thing in particular... cup cakes. It's like working on a model...takes hours and sweat, tears, and maybe physical pain. I have the sore feet and hands and back to prove it! Cupcakes take very little effort, lots of care, and it just makes me feel good. I eat a couple while i'm icing them but I usually share them with girls on my floor or my design 1 class. They love it and I love doing it. And sometimes people are one thing away from feeling or doing something terrible. Maybe a cupcake and a smile will be that little thing that will make them feel a little bit better that day. :-)
So with cupcakes as a stress reliever comes the inevitable... it's really not just the cupcakes. Eating on the go, after a stressful time in studio at 2 am right before bed, whatever is in the fridge, and having a ben and jerry's semester long project isn't helping much either. So I ordered a armband for my ipod and jogging headphones. Hopefully I can jog and get back in shape... starting next week. I just really pray for order, peace, serenity, time, and God's blessings. I want to yearn for GOD and not be too tired to talk to him. He is our longest and most important relationship. He loved us and knew us before we were even conceived.
John 15:1-13 says:
Jesus Christ, is God's unique and eternal Son.1 He is the Alpha and Omega,2 the Great I AM,3 the "Mighty God"4 by whom all things were created5 and in whom all things consist.6 Jesus, who is the head of all things,7 humbled Himself in such a way that the human mind couldn't even bare the thought of it. He came into this sin-cursed world and actively partook in our sufferings. Even as we are flesh and blood, He shared in the same.8 He became a man and dwelt among us.9 He shared in the sufferings we brought upon ourselves through our rejection of His holy precepts.10 And as if that were not enough to convince us of His love and concern for us, Jesus, the immortal God and the Giver of Life, gave up His own life upon the cross in the greatest act of love the world has ever known! In doing so He took our sins away, effectively nailing them to the cross with Himself. Thus, He who knew no sin became sin for us11 and He who gave life to all, tasted death for those condemned to it.12 "Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends"
I feel like crying when I read that. I think one of the things I am so grateful for is that I know God right now and at an early age... and now I'm just blabbing... I have to start my project for architecture and get something done tonight.
I love music artists who are searching for God and ones that have already found him. It makes my heart smile. Mat Kearney's "memorial stones" is a song about his whole journey with God. I think at one point he was selling drugs and stuff. When I saw him in concert (which happened to be at a bar) he was amazing. And although a lot of people were drunk/ smoking and stuff he seemed cool enough not to be all nose up in the air Christian about it. Even though I highly dislike the smell of smoke and the potential cancerous risks second hand smoke can have and the actions of people who are drunk, I think I could have been less snobby and been more Christlike. I think Jesus was never snobby. Correct me if I'm wrong. So here's a video of Mat Kearney's "Memorial Stones"
A young one, in just tears Lying in my own fears Lying, choking in a puddle Drowning down in my own tears Left you for the simple spread Taking the steps it ends in Lie down in a self-dug grave, Cloud formed over my head as I laid myself down to rest The enemy camped upon my chest With blinded eyes and lies Till cries he did profess With rain and thundering storms And clouds that fogged my intellect With guilt and shame he built his house And doubts in the form of self respect With lightning that was frightening Taking my eyes up off the Lord Trying to discredit and edit The words of truth he found in sword He harmed me and disarmed me And he charmed me with his army But I stand before you right now Cause the Lord came upon me With the morning sun that pierced the cloud And made the moisture dissipate With a northern wind, the fog will clear And the rays touched my face Holy Spirit, warmed me, swarmed me Touching me with a sweet taste He picked me up, and kicked my butt And placed me back in the right race Lord, you brought me out of shackles Divided seas all along It’s in you that I still stand It’s in you that I have song
Memorial stones in the middle of the Jordan Lord you brought me along I had a change through the desert In you Lord that I’m strong Raining bread from the heavens Giving me a new song Memorial stones in the middle of the Jordan I’m pressing on
From the day to day, the miry clay Through the wilderness astray You brought me to the river Jordan Bow my head down low and pray And thank a faithful God Who’s brought his water to my lip Grabbed my hand and led me to the promised land where the honey drips And the vines filled with fruit of all kinds For the spirit, soul, and mind Around the sound of chimes The water stopped and came in line And clattered feet sound Israel crossed the dry ground Memorial stones were laid down In awe of your love that’s so profound You brought the old into a new face With a new place and a new grace Your love, provision shown as you gave your child a new taste The manna stocks of milk and honey of (?) found at my feet Then I dropped to my knees For the God, he’s so complete About face, he sees me From the grips, the enemy In the midst, my blunder through the thunder You’re under me in victory By no means is this journey finished, over, or complete There are many Jericho’s walls That’ll fall at Allah’s feet
Memorial stones in the middle of the Jordan Lord you brought me along I had a change through the desert In you Lord that I’m strong Raining bread from the heavens Giving me a new song Memorial stones in the middle of the Jordan I’m pressing on
This was way too long of a post. I just feel like letting it all out sometimes. Whew...
