A letter to God.

Dear God,

I'm sorry.

I was selfish. I lied to you. I put my joy in the hands of others and not in you. I tried to be in control and push your will out of the way. I was a hipocrit. I knew deep down that it wasn't my time and you had something different planned.

I tried to bargain with you. "Lord if you do this for me then I will definitely read my bible and..." I was so foolish and selfish. You're the best friend I could ever have yet I was about to forget about you for others that can't even compare.

Thank you for your grace, eternal love, and life. This year I will spend that extra time planned for something else to you. I will abide by your will God. No more tears. Lead me in the right direction God. please?

I need prayer!

OK this isn't anything life threatening or anything but it would be great if people would pray for me. There are two things going on this week.
1) My architecture first project's final is due on tuesday. Or atleast mostly due. I need prayer that I use time wisely, don't get too stressed, and finish with an amazing project.
2) I have an interview this week for an organization I really want to be a part of. I've wanted to be a part of it since I was 16 and took a tour here. They gave the tour and I fell in love with the school. They're the official ambassadors to UF. I heard their interview is quite crazy. Think probably making up a song that describes you on the spot, telling them what is something unique about you, and so on. I'll let you all know how it goes. The interview is Thursday and I find out on Sunday the 27th. I'm already nervous thinking I won't be as fun or exciting as others. Hopefully God takes my nerves away and I can ace it. Here's a video...

Just an update...

Architorture has started up again! I'm taking 5 classes this semester and am trying to keep up but it's looking good so far. I just came home to get some dinner and fuel up for the last drawing. We're drawing floorplans from Tadao Ando's Koshino house. He's supposed to be one of the greatest architects still alive.

I've been keeping up with my bible reading. It has been good.

I've been keeping in contact with friends and family which I didn't do much of last semester.

I've worked out and counted my calories successfully so far this week. I feel better now and never hungry or deprived. Even if I can't have two slices of bread because I don't have enough calories left by dinner time to make a whole sandwhich. Tonight I had chicken noodle soup and a melted cheese and turkey on a slice of bread. It was pretty good. I'm liking this way of eating. I no longer crave fast food or stuff on campus. I feel like I'm actually saving money too.

I must go back to studio and hopefully get out of their by midnight. It is now 8:17pm.

Engage the Journey 08

So along with getting in shape and getting great grades in 08 I have also pledged to read the bible chronologically in one year. So far so good.

So today I read through Genesis 15, 16, and 17. It was about God's promise to Abram. God told Abram that he'd bless him but Abram was all "What good are blessings If I don't have descendants to carry them on" and what not. So God promised him a son but Abram didn't really believe him because him and his wife Sarai had tried to have kids but she couldn't. So yeah... God promised him that he would be the "father of many" and that he would have more descendants then the stars in the sky.

I really like finding out name meanings... in today's reading I found out that Ishmael means "God hears" and El-Shaddai means "God Almighty."

Another verse that stuck out to me was when God said "serve me faithfully and live a blameless life." A couple of weeks ago over break my home church's youth group went over the "blameless" issue that came up in proverbs.

I'm a little tired now so I'm going to be taking a nap.